2015: It’s Been A Year

So, 2015 is ending today and I have stuff…I guess.

2015 was a big year for me. When I recapped 2014 I stuck to fandom, but I’m not feeling like doing that this year since very little has changed on that front this year. With the exception of The X-Files (Ohhh, X-Files) There was very little new in my fangirly world this year and that’s OK.

Here are some big steps that I did take:

  1. I went on two self planned and financed vacations, and they both meant a great deal to me. I learned a lot about myself from these trips, but mainly that following through on something that I’ve wanted to do for a long time is immensely satisfying and that piano bars are the best. (the best.) I also learned that while I certainly can enjoy vacationing alone, it’s much better with a buddy. (Thank you infinitely to Juli for being that buddy…I hope we have many more trips, large and small ahead of us.)
  2. I prioritized my mental health. I’m still not in therapy. I should be. (I know, I know…) but by making sure that I took myself out of stressful situations, standing up for myself when I felt it necessary (even to and especially to the people I cared about.) and pushing through to be even just functional on bad days, I made enormous strides, and recognizing the reasons I was in a funk when the funk came, I was better able to logic my way through rather than just declare, “I feel crappy, and will now stop going to work!” Progress!
  3. I stayed in the same job all year long. I have never done this before and it’s a big win for me! GO ME! Actually in April I will have been at my job for two years. This is insanity. I suppose it’s what adulting feels like.
  4. I paid off my credit card. Then used it to go on vacation. Then paid it off again. I was planning another trip for the winter, but realized I’d rather put that money towards a security deposit on an apartment that will be not my parents’ house. I am going to Nashville to visit my cousin at college though. But I’m not paying for that. I mean, I would have but my mom has miles.
  5. I  performed in front of an audience again for the first time in years. It was amazing and terrifying and it made me feel great. I have to remember that that is something I love.
  6. I found a new favorite writer! I mean a part of my heart will always belong to Jen Lancaster, who I’ve actually been rereading a lot lately. But as I reread I was still thoroughly entertained but realized, “oh, this isn’t really my world view anymore.” Emily V. Gordon though, shares much more of my worldview. So, now I’ll probably obsess about her for a few years before briefly embarrassing myself at one of her events and asking her which Avenger she’d like to make out with…actually I’m pretty sure that Emily’s covered that. (Also she and Kumail are writing a movie about their early relationship, when she was in a coma etc. AGH, I love them.)
  7. I…didn’t really date…at all…I mean, I met dudes, but no dating. I’m mostly OK with this, because I was focused on a million other things that were more important to me. But still, I should probably do more of the dating thing in 2016. Pretty much because I found myself crying in a bar a few weeks ago about being lonely and I’m guessing that wouldn’t have come up if I were 100% OK with the not dating thing…(Thank you to Mary for dealing with me crying in a bar by yelling at me that I’m an idiot and then hugging me a lot and apologizing for yelling at me. You are a good sister.)
  8. I started commenting fairly regularly on The Mary Sue, which while a fairly safe space was still a huge step forward for me internet-wise. The thing is though, not many of my friends are into Steven Universe and I have to flail about it somewhere. (Also, friends GET INTO STEVEN UNIVERSE) But I’ve been very active over there lately with Star Wars talk. I have little posting friends, people who I’m interesting in hearing their opinions, and who I think like mine. It’s pretty great.
  9. I became really close to my cousin’s wife Kristi, who I’ve always gotten along with, but for some reason, we’d never clicked as more than a pleasant conversation here and there at holidays. This year that changed, and I now count Kristi as one of my closest friends and since we’re stuck with each other for life, it’s nice to have that. Sean, her husband, I also like a lot. But not as much. (Sorry Sean!) New friends are always exciting, but when they’re related to you it’s the absolute best
  10. I started going to smaller Comic Conventions and again, did it alone. (I even have one coming up in a few weeks!) That was big thing this year, just doing things that I wanted to do, even if no one wanted to do them with me…and I’m really glad that I did!

Happy New Year Everyone! I hope you have a good night and here’s to new beginning!


Sleepy UsagiGuys, I’m exhausted.

There has been a lot of hanging out and fun and drinking and awesomeness with my family this week (and it continues tonight. There’s a lot going on.)

I’m spending New Year’s Eve with Chrissy and Glen, which has gone well over the past few years. But I’m also completely wiped, and need to crawl into bed for at least 24 hours and not speak to anyone. (This is not on the table quite yet by the way, since my cousin Robbie is getting married this weekend and I have work and all.)

Anyway, that’s what’s going on with me. We saw Kinky Boots last night. It was Meaghan’s first Broadway Show. It was a delight. I don’t have the bandwith to fully review it.

I’m rewatching Kimmy Schmidt before bed, and trying to push through the last two seasons of X-Files. (I also have this whole year in review thing that’ll go up tomorrow.) But I’m wiped.

Here’s a sleepy Usagi to make up for the fact that I’m not watching Sailor Moon this week.


“The Husbands of River Song” and The Redemption of Doctor Who

So Doctor Who was really good this season huh? There was a sort of sensitivity that the show had been missing for a while, a beating heart  (or two) that with the loss of Amy Pond and Rory Williams just hadn’t been present.

And this season it was found, including the bittersweet goodbye to Clara Oswald, the introduction of half time lord Ashildr/Lady/Me/Mayor played with significant panache by Maisy Williams, and a delightful take for Michelle Gomez’s Missy.

But all of it was exemplified perfectly in the Christmas Special, which gave River Song the goodbye that she so richly deserves.

River’s not a character I was overly enamored of at first. (I was still mourning Rose in a big way when she was first introduced.) But on revisits, I’ve come to really appreciate the narrative gymnastics surrounding the character and Alex Kingston’s really delightful performance.

River’s various goodbye’s always felt half hearted to me, not even vaguely invested with the kind of dignity the character deserves. This may also because I’ve never been wild about Matt Smith or The Eleventh Doctor in general, and Twelve gives everything a sense of gravitas.

But my heart really started pumping while, staring at The Doctor, but not knowing it’s him, River insisted that he wasn’t in love with her. Because the man who was in love with her, wouldn’t have abandoned her after losing her parents in Manhattan.

Capaldi sold that moment very well, and Alex Kingston even better and actually seeing their final moments together before she heads off to the library to meet him one last time before going to her death was heart breaking.

That’s not to say that the episode was all weepy moments it wasn’t. There was also a ton of humor and a lot of giggling.

Seriously, Capaldi giggled.

It’s adorable.

And they’re sooo good together. I can’t get over the fact that canonically they’ll never be together again. I mean, knowing Moffatt, they may still wind up hanging out some more.

And speaking of Moffatt, this was apparently supposed to be his last episode. It’s very clear. This would have been an amazing goodbye for him.

As it is, I’m actually happy that he’s sticking around, which I never thought I would say. I’ve always preferred Russell T. Davies, and not just because of Tennant, but I do think that Moffatt’s style is a really good fit for Peter Capaldi, so I’m psyched to see them work through another season together. Seriously, much as David Tennant is really Davies’s Doctor, Capaldi is Stephen Moffatt’s.

Which, when I think about it, makes me sad for Matt Smith. Who really does seem quite nice…

Anyway, this was a great episode and you should watch it, and I have three little babies staying at my house right now, so I’m having trouble focusing because we were playing and then I drank a lot of wine!!!!!

But hey, I didn’t write about Star Wars. So we’re getting somewhere.


Star Wars…nothing but Star Wars…

The past few days have been very busy and I’m very tired and I haven’t had much of a chance to nerd out over something that isn’t Star Wars, because I was with my cousins and that was all we talked about OK?

I mean besides real life.

But you don’t want to hear about my real life.

So, here’s what I’ve gathered from informal conversations with my various cousins.

  • In general it would seem that my cousins think that Rey is probably Luke’s daughter, but as a whole, they hope that she isn’t. Everyone is way more on board with the idea that she is a Kenobi.
  • Everyone is on board with Snoke either being Plaigeous or Palpatine.
  • Kylo Ren is a little shit, but we think he’s an effective character.
  • Rey is not a Mary Sue, or if she is, we don’t care. We like her a lot.
  • The group is split on Finn. Some want him to have The Force, others do not. (I do want…for the record.)
  • Everyone is holding up OK in their mourning over Han. We all knew it was going to happen. That doesn’t make it hurt less.
  • Going forward, we would like Force Ghosts. Also Lando. And Wedge. To quote my cousin James, “Why was Poe not Wedge’s kid? I mean, he’s basically Wedge.”
  • We all love Poe.
  • Poe and Finn are in love. This is not head canon. This is not mindless shipping. This is a fact.
  • Leia’s going to die. (I am less convinced of this.) She’s definitely going to redeem Ben though. (I call him Ben in this instance because I doubt his mother thinks of him as “Kylo Ren.”)
  • Luke left Rey on Jakku. I wasn’t totally sold on that immediately. I still think it might have been Ben. But no one else seems with me on that.
  • General thought, “I don’t want Finn to be related to Lando or Mace Windu because, racism, but I do because I would like to see either Lando or Mace Windu…”
  • Seriously. Wedge Antilles. We want to see him. (I didn’t know that this was something I wanted until I started talking about it with other people…)

Anyway, if you’re thinking that you’re bored with all my Star Wars talk, you probably weren’t around in the early days when all I talked about was Batman. I’m sure I’ll move on to something else soon. Or I’ll try to.


Merry Happy: Rey Identity Theories

I don’t have a lot to say today! But I hope that everyone has a wonderful Christmas!

Since you all care so much, I’m going to give you the Christmas Present of Mike and my fleshed out Star Wars Theories.

Christmas Tree

Christmas Spoilers Ahead!

OK, so we’re still not sure if Rey is a Skywalker, although I am inclined to believe that she is.

My theory is that she’s Luke’s daughter, and that she was assigned to Ben Solo (Kylo Ren) as a Padawan. Luke knew that Rey was very powerful, and that Ben was close to the darkside, he believed that training her would help balance his nephew.

Once he was tempted by Snoke, Ben had to prove his devotion to his new path. He was instructed to kill his cousin and apprentice as well as his old master. He failed to kill Luke and could not bring himself to kill Rey, thus he abandoned her on Jakku. The girl was presumed dead and this betrayal is what finally broke Luke.

Leia recognized Rey when she finally met her after the destruction of Starkiller Base and Han’s death.

His failure to kill Rey and guilt over abandoning her are what’s “tearing him apart.”

Also, Kylo Ren is terrible at family history.

Mike’s theory is that Rey isn’t a Skywalker at all, but is still from the same bloodline as Luke and Leia.

Stay with me.

Padme had family. There’s a deleted scene from Episode II where she and Anakin eat dinner with her parents and sister. Rey is Padme’s grand niece. Luke hid her on Jakku…OK we’re still trying to figure out why, but that’s the thought.

We’re both also open to the idea that she’s Obi-Wan’s granddaughter too. As we do have 17 unaccounted years for him on Tatooine and protecting his descendants would probably be high on Luke’s list of priorities.

Mike also twisted his theory to include that Rey might be both Padme’s grand neice and Obi-Wan’s Grand daughter, what with the 17 unaccounted years and all.

I think that one’s a bit of a stretch though…

Merry Christmas!

Movie Season 2015: Let’s Go To The Movies

This has been a long and active movie season. I was going to wait another week to write it up and then I realized that I am not going to see anymore movies and I needed a post to put up today. So. Here’s Movie Season, and what I remember from each movie.

1. The Martian

I’m kind of amazed, given where I started with all of this how most of the big splashy block buster are more towards the middle. Not that The Martian isn’t flashy, it’s just, I don’t know, more serious? I can’t explain it. I did love this movie. And I looovvvveddd the book it’s based on

2. Straight Outta Compton

I like hip hop now. I really never did. I am the whitest white girl to ever not even. But if my Lululemon and Ugg Clad, Pumpkin Spice Swilling, Tequila Shooting ass can relate to the story of NWA as presented in this film anyone can.

3. Creed

It was a big year for re-quels (I saw and covered four of them) and this was by far the best one, and the most effective. It’s the second best Rocky movie ever. (After the first Rocky) and manages to be entirely it’s own thing while paying tribute to this huuugge iconic monolith. It’s an exceptional feat of film making and OMG PUT MICHAEL B. JORDAN IN EVERYTHING

4. Crimson Peak

I still giggle every time I think about Crimson Peak, which, honestly is not that often, but still. I’m sure once it makes it’s HBO rotations I’ll watch it like six more times. And we saw Tom Hiddleston butt! And it’s feminist! And there are ghosts! This movie is an underrated gem.

5. Star Wars: The Force Awakens

Stop it. You’re crying. I’m not still crying nearly a week later, that would be ridiculous. But the magic is back. It’s back in a big way. I’ll probably see it again…and again…and again and again until I finally have no more tears to cry.

6. Bridge of Spies

The more I think about it, this might be my new favorite non Dino related Spielberg movie. It’s definitely my new favorite Tom Hanks performance. It’s very beautiful. And the movie is good. It’s quiet, but affecting

7. Mockingjay Part 2

This series is over. I’m going to miss it. The movie itself is something deeply special, but I still think that Mockingjay Part 1 is the best part of the series.

8. The Man From UNCLE

Speaking of underrated gems. The lack of love this movie got is criminal. It was awesome. 

9. Spectre

Also awesome. As Aless and I exclaimed as we watched it, “He had a suit on under his other suit!” Which is ridiculous. And Wonderful.

10. Ant-Man

It’s a testament to how strong the fall was that Ant-Man fell so in the middle of the pack because it was probably my favorite movie of the summer. I need to watch it again, but everytime I think about it, I get super happy.

11. Mad Max: Fury Road

WE LIVE WE DIE WE LIVE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Another that I need to revisit, but I did absolutely adore it. I actually have a plan to do a kind of roundtable about this movie with other pop culture and feminism loving ladies I know.

12. Inside Out

Oh, there’s the crying again.

13. Trainwreck

I’ve only fallen harder for Amy Schumer since this movie came out and I’m convinced that she’s living exactly the life I wanted to live when I was twelve years old. (I no longer want that life, but I’m very impressed by it.)

14. Tomorrowland

Every time I tell people that this movie is worth watching, they looked at me like I’m insane. But it really, really, is. Is it the best movie ever. Of course not, but it’s worth a look.

15. Jurassic World

I loved this movie so much that I’m afraid to watch it again and learn that it was really, really stupid. But also…Chris Pratt…sooooo…..

16. Ricki And The Flash

I…sort of forgot I saw this. But Sebastian Stan was all smiley in it, which is something I can get behind because he has a lovely smile and he’s often so mopey.

17. Avengers: Age of Ultron

God what a messy disappointment, huh? I still like Bruce/Natasha though, and Hawkeye’s boring family.

18. Minions

What even is this movie? I don’t remember, I saw a lot of movies this year.

19. Fantastic Four


20. Terminator: Genisys

I badly wish that this had been good. It very easily could have been, and I still maintaining, “watching Khaleesi punch Computer Doctor in the face,” is a good idea for a movie. I mean literally that though, not some other characters played by Emilia Clarke and Matt Smith

21. Entourage


22. Pitch Perfect 2

How much I disliked this movie made me sad, because I loved Pitch Perfect so much.


So, that’s this year’s Movie season! I had a lot of fun, but I’m also glad that it’s over and I take a bit of a breather. (I mean, I’ll still see Hateful 8 and maybe The Revenant and probably Joy, but I don’t feel like I need to.) 

Time to gear up for 2016, which begins with Captain America: Civil War in May!

Sailor Stars Check In: Episodes 168 & 169: Everyone Listen To Saturn!

Sailor Stars

Special “All I want to do is talk about Star Wars, but I can’t just do that so we’re doing Sailor Moon early,” Post! HOORAY!

So, there’s a mirror shard in Mamoru’s eye that’s allowing Nehelina to control him, and she’s making him behave like a total dick.

I feel like we’ve seen this before. Anyway, Usagi is sad because she doesn’t know why Mamo is being a dick, and I don’t blame her because clearly she thought they were past all of that, and everytime Chibi-Usa doesn’t dissolve Back To The Future style, it’s proof that they’re happy ending is destined to happen.

I think.

I’m still not clear on the time travel rules in the Sailor Moon universe.

Anyway, Setsuna, Michiru and Haruka bring Hotaru home and talk about what they’re going to do with her. Also, Haruka gets all meta and wonders if perhaps they are all just characters in a sci fi story and that’s why all this weird shit is happening and Michiru is like, “baby, maybe not with the depressing stuff.”

Then Hotaru has a dream and Sailor Saturn awakens and she’s great.

Meanwhile the inner Senshi battle some of those naked glass Nehelina’s and are getting their adorable little booties kicked until the outers show up and everyone is just psyched to see them. (So was I, you guys, so was I…) and then Saturn reveals herself and gives everyone outfit upgrades and Usagi gets that sweet ass layered skirt and pink puff sleeve costume.

Also angel wings.

Like I said last week, Sailor Moon Eternal has a lot going on and I’m still not totally sold on it.

They defeat the Nehelina Clones, but you know, she has Mamo in thrall or whatever, but at least he apologized for being a dick.

Second episode!

Mamo, still being a dick. And everyone is obsessed with their reflections. The Senshi learn that it’s Nehelina that’s doing this but then she takes Mamoru, and Chibi-Usa.

And…that’s pretty much the episodes.

OH, and Rei tells everyone that she’s been having weird visions of shadows coming out of mirrors and that…feels like a detail you might have wanted to share, Rei, as last time you didn’t tell everyone about your ominous visions, bad things happened.

Your friend group all have

Next week we get some kind of flashback to tiny little baby Ami, and I love that.

Look, I’m just really happy that after fifty some episodes with no outer senshi, we’re now just getting slammed with them in all of the episodes and it’s great.